I am still here..

I have never been in a full time job for that long, most of the time I have been an entrepreneur experiencing different kind of business, banging my head on the wall.

I truly enjoyed the experience. The experience that I can get to be my own boss, the experience that I get to dictate my own life and write my own chapter. Although money didn't come by easily.. but who doesn't?

This month-end will be exactly one year in service in my full-time job. Met some great colleagues, learnt how shrewd and realistic humans are.

I got outsmarted. I got even smarter. Got screwed. And I screwed people up.

Got my salary scaling high and dropping down and scaling gradually again.

Got promoted to a supervisory position now, not due to my performance but due to the leaving of my colleagues.

They went off in search of a better future, taking the meandering entrepreneur path. I was initially in the plan, but I got kicked because they thought that I was a spy. Now I have better plans.

Maybe it was a blessing in disguise, maybe their leaving for good might make me a manager soon since the manager is leaving soon.

But I don't think I can wait that long. I can't wait to leave.

I am so tired.

But if I don't leave, will I see any future in that company?

I don't think so.