Forever yours

It has been 7 weeks 1 day since you went away. I miss you so much and I don't know what to say.

I saw the video that I took for you during your birthday and also the photo that we took together with my mobile phone.

I saw that expression in your eyes.

You kinda know that was coming and you didn't bear to leave us too.

Now that you are gone and what's left is only an urn and all the wonderful memories of you.

I'm sitting down here watching what has remained, the Guthy Renker trainer that you always do in the morning and evening when you were still healthy and fit. You did that quite pretty well, I could say.

And also the comical up-down movements of your shoulders when you burst into laughter whenever someone teased you. We were always happy to see that expression of yours.

I should have known this was going to come along. Many a times, I used to wake up crying when I dreamt of you. I knew you were staying alone and getting old, I always promised that I wanted to stay with you but somehow I didn't. I felt guilty.

I was really glad that you managed to move in with us and felt happy and at home with our cohesiveness.

I always tell myself that I wouldn't know what to do when I lose you.

Too bad that you can't witness our wedding dinner, but I hope that you can bless us too.

Hope Ah Gong and you can be together forever now. Tell him that I missed him too.

It just rained suddenly.

Looking out from the window, I see tears dropping from the sky.

Were you crying too?

NYE Countdown!!

Where will you be? Clubbing? Ktv?

I am still in the office. Have been the last one to leave the office for this week.

Is it that I am slow? Or I simply have too many things to do as compared to them?

Overworking gives me a bad headache.

I think I am becoming a workaholic, and thats unhealthy...

Btw, Happy New Year!

Hope the new year can bring more joy to me and all of you!

Success is coming!

New Skin for the New Year

After 2 hours of experimenting and customizing of templates here and there, I finally put my mind to choose on this skin for the new year upcoming.

Hope that this can enhance the readability of my blog and gives a more clean web 2.0 feel.

Sorry Blogger for I love twitter more as I can just happily tweet away with my tweeter application on my E71 that also updates my facebook status.

If there's an app for Blogger for E71, do let me know!

I have been blogging less than 2009, does it mean good or bad? Does my posts show my anger and sadness or happiness and enthusiasm?

Is the new year resolution day again. No more stupid resolutions. Just hope that everyone is healthy and stay fit always.

And say "HI" to financial freedom soon.

It's finally here. The Batam Paranormal Activity

It was our baby. Given only 2 hours to come out with the script, the filming, post-editing and sound effects, it doesn't seem easy. There are some areas that the cameraman can be seen, but it's the best we can do without cutting too much of the essence of the movie.

On your speakers with woofers and feel the bass. Enjoy!

The cruel facts of a so called "meritocratic" society

Meritocratic society here? I think not?

It's so disheartening to find out that as one ages, your value goes down and your value for the number of work experiences that you have accumulated throughout your life goes down the drain. When you reach 40 and you have decided to look for a job, you would have to face the upmost number of rejections and probably would stay unemployed for a long time.

And as you get older, you get more and more dispensible to the company and it's always that you have the VIP ticket to retrenchment if your company is not doing well. Managers are getting younger and younger nowadays and they wouldn't want to work with people who are older than them for they feel threatened by someone who has more years of experience than them.

And how about an ex-lecturer who has Masters degree? Stooping down to doing a temporary job only to have been rejected because he/she is over qualified? What nonsense is that? If you are unemployed, that means you need to work in order to survive.

Money. We need money to survive. Doesn't care who the fuck you are or you were. Period.

Don't talk stupid shit like being over-qualified or that the person is not able to adapt to a different field of work just by looking at the work history. In order to survive, humans need to adapt to the new environment, that even means a new job scope as well. How does one qualify to become a HR personel of a company when the company has a 100years of history and they are hiring people who are racists and so against hiring older people?

What? I heard that a clerk can only be in his 20s? Not even late 30s? And when you are 40, you can only work as a housekeeper earning $1K per month? What if you are a white collar and you are only offered a blue collar job?

Wake up. They are our seniors and they definitely have much more work experience than us and can share their knowledge with us. They might also happened to be our parents and they have a family to take care of. How can they take care of fucking you and the family when you are not giving jobs to them?

Picture this: If you are a senior manager at 50, and suddenly the company goes into downsizing, you will get affected and you will find yourself competing with the young people for other positions. Even when you stoop down to get a salary that's half of what you are having now, you will still find difficulty in getting employed because you are old.

That's really a sad thing to know. And even if you are in the government service, you are not sparred the axe either. Early retirement at age 50 is really crap. Who wants you when they claim that you have got no real life working experience except for working internally in the government sector? When you don't keep in touch with the customers out there?

What's the future for us people? It might even be a scene where you can only see young people in their 20s working in shenton way and they shun older people like they see the scariest creature of their lives. The senior people will be hiding in their homes and wouldn't dare to come out.

I better be on my way to getting self-employed before I myself become a victim of age discrimination.